Chapter 5 (Part 2) – Scribblings of A Shirdi Sai Devotee

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Offerings at the Lotus Feet of Shri Sai Nath

6.
No Desire for Mukti

Sai!

Ever since you have held my hand in your own

Miseries of life seem to have forsaken me.

And my life has acquired a new meaning,

Hitherto unknown to me.

You have become the be all and end all of my life.

Sai, you are the destination of my life

You are the beginning, as also the end of my life

I am your child.

Oh! what a bliss, you have bestowed on me!

I often find it difficult to live in this world

And yet I do not want to leave it

The desire to experience more and more of your Grace

Still lurks in me.

I know full well

Onto the path of bhakti

Desirelessness is a pre-requisite

But tell me

What shall I gain by attaining Mukti

Where You shall not be there

Where my soul would have merged in the Supreme.

Where I shall cease to exist as I,

And cease to experience Your Grace as before.

7. A Devotee Opens His Heart

Whether you are a saint or Bhagwan, Avtar or ‘Parabrahm’

Whatever you are,

You are unique

And my own.

But if I say something to you

Kindly do not take it amiss.

You do discriminate between your devotees.

On some you have bestowed the power of “Vaksiddhata”

On some capacity to foretell events,

Many you have turned into Gurus and Sadgurus in no time

On others you have bestowed immeasurable wealth and luxuries of life

But on me,your humble devotee

Who has endeavoured to serve you heart and soul.

You have bestowed no such favours

Neither do I have the capacity to see the future,

Nor do I possess wisdom

Nor even wealth.

If nothing else,

You could have given me your pure unadulterated devotion

Even that you have not given me

If I had even pure devotion

I would have had the satisfaction,

That pure Satvik Bhakti flows within my veins

And encompasses my whole being.

Even that I do not possess.

Sai, I know

That by attributing the charge of discrimination against you.

I am committing a sin.

I do accept, however,

I have never asked you for all this

But haven’t you said,

“Everyone asks from me wealth, progeny and luxuries of life,

But nobody asks from me?

A chunk from the great treasure, I hold

And which I want to share with him.”

If having taken your words as a gospel truth

I did not beg from you the objects of pleasure,

Did I commit a sin?

O’ my Baba!

I implore you not to mind my words

I am a petty human being

Who hasn’t risen above the limitations of the physical frame.

I am your child

Ignorant and uncouth,

DO pardon me.

You have given me something unique

Filled my heart with abounding love and compassion

Sai, I need nothing more

I beseech you,

Bestow’on me the unique honour

That when I leave this transitory world,

You shall take me in your own arms

And merge me in your bosom,

So that for all times to come,

I become your own.

Continued…Chapter 5 Part 3

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