This is part 4 of Chapter 7 of the divine book “Scribblings of A Shirdi Sai Devotee” written by an ardent and staunch devotee Shri Suresh Chandra Gupta ji from New Delhi.
Devotee readers who have missed earlier chapters can read from the links below.
7. Loneliness
In the silent valley of my heart
Where peace eternal prevails
Birds sing celestial songs
Cool bliss laden breezes blow
The soul within O’ Sai
Experiences your gracious presence
And yearns to merge in thee
In this vast arena of the universe
Where innumerable claim to experience your grace
In the quiet crevices of my heart
I feel forlorn
Not a soul to share with
Your all encompassing love.
Tales of complete surrender
Experiencing your grace at every step
Total dedication to your lotus feet
My ears hear every day
My heart feels enthralled
For a moment only
The reality dawns soon
And once again
The feeling of loneliness overpowers me.
How come every one be wrong
The heart within feels guilty
The soul endeavours to look deeper still
Experiences a void
Unsurmountable.
Sanity returns soon,
Why look outside
When nothing exists
Beyond the Self
Realize it
Dive deep into it
And become one
With the eternal self within
Which is Sai
The ‘Parabrahm’.
8. The Eternal Self
O’ mind
I command thee to be subservient to me.
Do not attempt to be my master
Thou hast already played enough mischief with me.
Suddenly a thought flashes
Who is this ‘I’ commanding the mind?
Where does it reside?
Where is the mind I command?
The I is within me
The body being its dwelling place.
Can I see it?
Can I identify it?
And suddenly a vacuum is flet
But who does this vacuum experience
In the physical frame exists
Neither the ‘I’ nor the mind, I adore
But then who am ‘I’
And what is my existence?
O’ my Baba
Where are you?
To whom the ‘I’ in me sems to have belonged whole life.
I am your child
Do come, guide me and show me the path
The ‘I’ in me seems to have been lost
In the wilderness of ‘Nothingness’
I seem to exist no where
And so do you
Then what is this existence?
And what is your position vis-à-vis my existence
A mere ‘Maya’ or a mirage?
Where does it exist?
What is the purpose of its creation?
Suddenly a thought overpowers the ‘I’ in me
The whole is one
A big zero, a shuniya
Which itself exists no where
Suddenly the chant of ‘Sai Mahadeva’
Vibrates within me from nowhere
The faith strikes
The ‘I’ in me feels surcharged
How could my Sai be nowhere?
He is the eternal self within me
Whom the ‘I’ in me has loved and belonged to
He is here, there and everywhere
Let the ‘I’ in me
Dwell in Him,
Become one with Him
Is it again the mind,
Playing mischief with me?
The light that flickers in me
Has been bestowed by ‘Sai’ alone
Enlightening the self
And becoming one with Him.
I am absolute Existence
I am absolute Consciousness
I am absolute Bliss
I am the Truth Eternal
I am the Light
I am the Love
Purity Incarnate
I am Omnipresent
I am Omnipotent
I am Omniscient
I am beyond Life and Death
I am Satyam, Sivam, Sundram
The self eternal
And so are you
O’ my Baba!
Continued…Chapter 7 Part 3
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